Why are pretty girls always the center of attention?

I thought over it yesterday

Their beautiful faces and bodies attracts guys

No matter whether they're rough or loud or anything

Guys still like them

I sat down and look in my full-body mirror

" I'll probably never going to get any dates when I grow up with this kind of face "

A tear dropped down

I know I'm very dramatic

I admire Elaine and Sherilyn

They are the kind of girls whereby when boys walk by, they'll stare till their eyes popped out

This was decided the moment they were born

Me?

The guys won't even bother to look at me

Maybe I should have different recess time

Cause later I walk by them, They'll puke

Another tear dropped down

Shan En said I was irritating

Joshua asked me to get a life

The two guys whom I was very good friends with

Now, everything changed

I'm on my own now

I cannot control my tears

I spotted a penknife

I took it out and look at it

If I died maybe no one will even feel sad

But no

I scolded myself for having this kind of thoughts

Who says Ladies can't survive without guys?

But I need a shoulder to lie on

A ear to tell my troubles to

From this 13 years I've lived

There are only 2 guys who liked me

One only lasted for few days

The other for a few months

Why can't I have few decades?

Centuries?

This time, the blade was already on my arm

I'm so pathetic

I dried my tears and threw the penknife away

I went to the library and saw many people's tags on my blog

Then there's one where my eye spotted

Its from him!

Although my love for him isn't that strong like the last few years

I ran out and squealed

He hardly tags me since the forced relationship ended

I'm going to remember this day,

Jul 5th 2007, 21:46 Thursday

Thank you Ting Yu, Thessa, Cherie, Sherilyn, Lee Chien

All of you who make me realised that people still cared for me

And that life is damn precious

I won't have the commiting sucide thought

Not ever again